My life seem to run on a cycle of self-destruction... dun get caught in my wheel.

Memories`

君がいた夏は 遠い夢の中空に消えてった ~

Shine ^_^

.... then don't














mou... owari.... ka?

see you in 10 years....

I AM NOT A FARKING BIRD!!!!










... dun make me turn into one....

We promised to soar in the skies together

We promised to stand by each other through all weather

We are reaching our peak in the clouds, just a little more towards the promised lands above

In this scene of monochrome clouds and gushing winds, I turned behind to say " Ganbare!!"

only to realise that the seat behind me is already empty

without a thought I climbed out of my seat, and became the wind that would carry you.

who am i? what have i been doing here?

surrounded by darkness and silence, a cooling retreat for me.

before me lies pieces of broken mirrors, each of fragment of my memories.

what am i doing here?

i peered into my reflection...

a monster never change... it stays a monster no matter how it tries...

the monster hurts everyone... even when it wanted to be friends...

for the monster is a monster

the monster selfishly wanted company... and invaded the lives of the happy and kind people it met

monsters are meant to stay alone. in darkness.

tt is the least it can do to avoid hurting those it loves.

the monster hid in a dark place, listening to the laughers of its friends

it smiles, knowing that they are happy, but it will stay in the darkness, listening, contented.

sorry... for making you worry... but i am fine here, watching from this darkness. the distance between us may be the only thing that can protect you from me.

each day ... i ponder what troubles goes through your mind, in vain, for i have realised that in the end, my heart is selfish and i fail to understand. if only, my pondering of your troubles can lift those problems from your life. if only, each of you can place ur misery in this cursed body and let me fade away along with it.

for once... i really want to stop bringing trouble upon you. even if that means erasing myself.

please, let me dig out this wilful heart and stab it to death with a silver dagger

let me seal my emotions so i can stop hurting those around me

these sins that i cant undo.... then i shall undo myself, to prevent any more hurt upon you

Something is not wright...

Let me go!

LET ME GO!

lemme out lemme out lemme out lemme out lemme out

LET ME OUT!!!


NOW!!!!


sometimes... somewhere... somehow...


...





now

Its coming.

Something will be lost, not signficant, but lost.

We move on.

Its coming.

Its coming.

Its coming.





I may die...

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バイバイ

The Minstrel went to the tower by the sea and sang a song on the rocks.

Dream a sweet dream my child, for now I am here to protect you.

No one can ever pry us apart.

I dreamt a dream so sweet, that I want to sleep forever.

Reality now looks like a barren land of rocks, but till the sun goes down, I will travel through the plains, searching for the adventure that I may never find.

Then, yet again, I will be able to rest my tired shell and travel back to LalaLand.

Curiosity WILL kill the cat

Today, I chanced upon a circus of the past.

Amongst the fabrics of black and red, I found an antique mirror, dusty but shining.

Carelessly, I peeked into the reflection.

First there was the Alice Rabbit in May.

Then there was the Strawberry Cream Kitten of Hugs.

But now, I see the reflection of a shaggy wanderer, straying into this realm of mysteries.

Out of the corner of my eye, I saw the mad hatter and waved. He would still play the records on that old machine, but quietly he told me, that the clock is ticking and soon he will move on too. I sensed a sigh of nostalgia, but as I looked around and saw the new masks that I no longer recognise, I knew that time have came to past.

Nonchanlantly, I stood amongst the puppets of purple, black and maroon. I was the sore thumb of shaggy clothes amongst the masked puppets of glamour, but this time I feel most at ease.

As I wondered why, I felt a cool icy breeze and looked up to see the misty form of a snow phoenix. At that moment, I understood.

I reached out to the snow phoenix and it offered me its talons. Holding on tight, we flew above the noisy circus and into the deep blue sky above.

The snow phoenix had a wish to find the land of spring and warmth. Knowing the direction, I pointed towards a lonely star in the distance. Forgetting my grip on its talons, I fell into the ocean below. Nonetheless, the waves were forgiving and as I sank gently into the depths of the sea, I could hear the echo of the snow phoenix's voice in the distance beyond the sky towards the star.

As I faded into dim bubbles in the sea, not knowing why, a faint smile is all that is left.

In the moonlight that now crease the horizon line, a pair of icy wings rose from the waters and flew freely into the skys above.

In a cold lonely forest, bitter snow falls gently.

Lying down on the snowy land, I see a unique snow flake decent from above, somehow it looked gentle and inviting.

Trying to reach out to it, but my limbs can no longer move.

The snow flake land gently on my icy cold chest.

I almost could feel its warmth.

Sternly, it burnt into my froze flesh and leaves a charred mark of coal grey and red.

I could not feel the pain, although I felt like screaming, yet no voice came out.



There was silence, i could no longer hear the rustling of the trees.



Like a ragged doll, I started to move my limbs.

My fingers were cold and fragile like chalk.

Bitterly, I dragged myself up, my silver blonde hair in a frizzy mess.

Carefully, I examined my palms, my skin crumbled slightly as I tried to move my fingers, a faint light shines from under the stone cold flesh...


What is it, that I hear?

h e r o

A sigh of relief.... thank you. Best wishes.

Once again, we will fall into this mystic swamp.

Don't be afraid, we will be holding on to each other, as this swirl takes our breath away.

Now... BREATH!

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owarida....

See.... now we missed the lesson... zoo in 15 mins...

Whose fault? want to tok so much.

WAd, u oso tok as much.

U know, ppl are gonna get irritated by this cos he think reading it makes him look stupid.

Yea, so why you started it anyway.

...

Cos u upset tt time no one believe u exist right?

Yea, so what. I mean come on... its just rude... and i was indeed hurt. Who ask you to be more prominent now, no one believe that I am here.

I not prominent all the time wad, when you emo everyone sees it.

Eh, not only me emo lor, you oso emo.

Yea, but it shows more when its u.

Bullshyt.

U know, we may work better when we merge ( at least we dun creep ppl out), but i guess occasional spilt like this is ok too...

Yea, at least we can enjoy each other's company, not so lonely. Hmmph...

U know, one day maybe either one of us will come to past again, or even both...

Yea, I wonder each of us will remain till then... kinda sux, like becoming a label on a lousy floppy disc.

LoL.

Yea, anyway, after CAF i confirm want cut this hair and dye it blue/darker...

meh... I wanted more blonde, but ok, gonna be IAP anyway...

zzZzzz... I am getting tired...spent too much energy talking to u... u lucky bastard, have the body to support you.

Ok... rest in me for now. I will wake you at the zoo if i feel bored.

=w=

=3=

lol

and its 'we' who are going to the zoo... you are not getting away from the sun either.

Wait... i see where u are getting at!

Hey, you are trying to make me look weak too now that u made me rant so much at you...

Urgh! Great, now ppl will just think that we are some pyschotic idiot... trying to gain attention again, arent we.

How low we have sank man... *facepalm*

I am gonna shadddup now... get moving, u are gonna be late...

You just got lucky. And either way, you still havent achieved anything in the end, have you?
Stop being so sticky, ... well, emotionally, I mean... hmm.. cant say better for myself.

BUT! i still doubt if anyone will ever like a weakling, so buck up la!

Burggggh.... the maggie.... blehhhhh


Sigh... my intellegence level is constantly decreasing cos of you...

Well, you had a share in the whining too, its not just me... I dont even like the sea..
Sorry for being weak, you had been uptight since so long ago, cant u let me take over for a while now? You have seen the happy things that happened when I am in charge, no? And I bet u secretly enjoyed tt too.

Oh, and stop eating maggie. Makes me wanna puke. = =

Stop whining. Makes me look pathetic too.


You are just too free and bored, whining about being in happiness and unable to enjoy it.

How can you not be content that u already have me at your side.

And dont try to stop me from posting before I finish wad I am saying.


See how u deprived me of sleep last night and now we are gonna be late again and sleepy ... blasted sun, so hot, later still have to visit the zoo and end up smelling like shyt.

Where was I...

oh yea,

STOP WHINING! YOU FOOL!

go find something to do.

Pffftt

Pathetic.

I am very tired... but I cant sleep... I don't know why


Its like drowning, as much as I am tired from struggling, i cant go down yet... i wonder why


Suddenly, feel like going out to the sea side at night. Just me, the sky, and the waves.

Oh and the wind too.


Maybe one day I should try out if the wishing bottle thing is true... but then again, I don't know what to wish for... if it only happened just becos I wished for it, I would be saddened..... as always... its so simple, getting what I want just becos I wished for it. Some maybe disgusted by how I am not content with having most of my wishes fulfilled easily. I am too.

Sometimes, I feel that my life is like Momoko's Rococo world. Born into a blissful life, enjoy it daily and eventually die a person who never did much in her life. Useless, but 'happy'.

From time to time, I wonder, if I have ever experienced true happiness yet. Compared with society's standards, yes, I am leading a happy life. But am I really happy all the time? I dunno. I dislike how i usually that the happiness for granted...

I feel... I can never appreciate the things in my life enough. I try, every now and then... but eventually, I auto revert back to the same old bastard me...

It's when I look back, and realise the things that I did not treasure enough, that I would cry. And I hate myself for enjoying to cry... its one of the times that I actually feel human.

My only wish now... is for my parents to lead a blissful life. So soon, I will be working towards the goal of supporting them... but somehow... my wilful heart refuses to be bounded to a future where I am not the center of attention... I am such a selfish bastard. Haha...


Feel so useless...

Maybe... when I take things for granted... I lose the chance of finding happiness from them.


Why do I feel alone? ... maybe its becos... i cant sense my own existence too. There's just... empty inside and outside.


And so.. sometimes I hurt myself emotionally... so that I will cry.. and be reminded that... yes... I exist. Pathetic... isn't it. Ironically, usually more inspiration for creations come only when I am sad.


Feels like... fainting... every now and then, not the human body, but the soul... dunno why...


Its sometimes.. amusing, how I can type to this point, and already forget how I started this entry.


You see, as I write things out, my feelings goes along with them, eventually i forget the sad parts, and i no longer rmb why I am doing this... but similarly, I would repeat the same mistake one day, becos I forget.


I try hard not to forget... else the good memories will be locked up and forgotten too. I try...
even if it may take a toll...


I don't want to forget... don't forget...


even if i will eventually be poisoned by the emotions in these memories...

then I shall live and die protecting them...

I has been requested to write in English, so I will , occasionally... meh...

助けて..

もしも、生まれ変われるならば

僕達また双子が良いね。

どうして。。。涙が止まらない。

青い月明かり　ひとり夢みてた
誰も知らない　小さなその願い
明日こう言おう　あの人にこう言おう
空に星見上げ　大きな目に涙

寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々

寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々

紅い花 あなたの 白い花 わたしの
少女の恋心 今 昔 果てしなく
紅い花 あなたの 白い花 わたしの

寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々
寵鳥 耽々 寵鳥 耽々

寵鳥 耽々

rebirth

Whenever my personality changes drastically, i wonder if a part of me died and a new me is born.


Now, i realised that all along, only one thing remained.... me being selfish.


Today i would have told you that I realised that I am a selfish person and should stop being selfish so that the ppl around me will not be hurt again.

But that in itself, is a selfish tot, for by saying that, i just wanted everyone to love me.

Its painful but I don't want to forget.

I don't want to have another memory lost! Please! No!

Stop it! Stop it! Stop it!

Dont let these memories slip away~


誰が、助けで!

この記憶を忘れたくない! 命をかけでも!

The sky cleared, golden rays gently shine over the plains


If I say that I am totally okay, I would be lying


Some part of me still weep in the darkness, but i will dig out my heart and let the sunshine purify the last of those lingering darkness.


It may not be long before this dream crumbles to dust.


But till then, I will cherish our remaining moments in this blissful warmth.


So that when the time comes, I can lift you up to the heavens above, enough if that means I will sink to the endless abyss of eternal darkness.

I have been selfish while i was emo-ing.


I guess, I must live on stronger, and put any selfish feelings to rest.


For if I am weak, I can no longer protect you.


I want to stand by your side and fight this battle.


Even if that means sacrificing my secret happy ending.


With the days ahead of us, I wish to paint a rainbow in our sky.


Please, step on these arms and leap up towards your dreams.


I want to at least, be your ever helpful... friend.

what's the use of these eyes if all i see is sadness

what's the use of these wrists if they can no longer draw

what's the use of lessons if i cant focus on them

what's the use of this face if its just fugly and irritate ppl

what's the use of eating when i am just wasting resources

what's the use of trying when i already know the truth


i am just a weakling who cant push the blade deep enough

a weakling who cant climb up that curb


let me disappear from your sight and save u all the burden

i am useless when i am not cheerful but my face can no longer lie


i am sorry













perhaps... just my ears remain, so that amidst the darknesses

i can still hear your voice.

学園の七階から、幸せをみった。
その永遠の夢に、落ちる。

ごめん、
俺は弱くで、
君の側に伝えたいでも、
失格しました。

ありがと、
色々楽しかったの頃。
その記憶
忘れたくない。

さよなら、
君の負担をなりたくない。
俺は闇の世界へ旅します。
たぶん、ある日、戻ります。




幸せように ~

仲間だ!

飛びます

if i wrote it

i would forget it

happy days

best kept frozen

hence i must end my memories here

to keep them for eternality

Lost

~meh~

It's Done, Or Is It?

Kach:

[due to burning the midnight oil and several reasons, Kach will be too shagged to comment today. We apologise for any inconvinences caused]


Minstrel:

After nights of trying to produce a new piece of melody, I finally finished it. Apparently the outcome is not as over-the-top wonderful as I would have, well, it was rushed so...
But I am glad I got to talk to the summoner sometimes because of this project. But soon... sigh....

In a drowsy mood, I was pretty much unable to think clearly today. The fairy god mother led me to the royal kitchen, where the royal cook was experimenting with a whole lot of new reciepes. I guess in my clumsy daze I sampled too much of the snacks around and is now suffering a horrible sore throat... well... blame the nights that I worked through, I guess its about time my body takes a toll. Nonetheless, the snacks were delicious and I was glad that we went to pay the cook a visit.

During the gathering in the castle playroom, I was too tired to participate, hence I built a mini castle fort aroudn myself with some playing blocks and slept thru the event. The sore throat was getting worse hence I didnt bother to talk much.

On my way back to the chamber, I finally got a chance to try out some of the new musical games laying around, but I was too tired to get a good score.. o well...

In the end, I dragged my feet back to my chamber and now here... hungry and tired, but too pain to eat any snacks... o dear, I guess i just ran out of those crunchy noodles... o well.. who knows what was used to made those...

meh =A=

Taadaa~

Kach:

Codpit siao liao siao liao, lucky we can still work together over the net. Starts to feel the tension between us actually ease abit, maybe i was the sensitive one from the beginning. Glad tt we can hope to finish it in time.


Minstrel:

Still stuck in my chamber composing whole day. The combat bulter and guardian summoner visited my chambers rather abruptly, but heart-warming none the less. I guess the combat bulter was rather appauled by the messy state of the room of a frantic minstrel. Apparently, the guardian summoner had seen worst and was happily helping bulter to cook some noodles and we ate together.... althou i was rather disappointed tt the bulter insisted not to put in the meat, since he was saying that the way it is stored is horrible and we wont make it to another day after eating it... pfft... i will keep the meat to myself for supper then. :P

Sorry that due to overload of music composing, I had to miss my arrangement with the royal senior court wizard. I hope I wasnt a kill joy, but sometimes a minstrel has some obligatory tasks to fufil =.=

Darn.. now I am hungry again.

Whilst the guardian summoner has retired to her chambers, I realised that she forgot to run an errand due for the morning, I guess I will have to disguise as her and do it in her stead. Haiz, i was too careless.

And good luck to all who are still trying to fufill their obligatory tasks.

Cant wait till two days later, when I may have the free time to get a new minstrel hat. *peeks into gold coins pouch, moth fly out* =A=

Sorry fairygodmother, that I wasnt able to accompany you today *bows*

*continues to wave my pink feather quills and getting trapped in my chamber*

MEH =A=

Kach:

holy crap... assignment! I must chiong my codpit tonight, so tt tmr i more free, can go cut hair with lue. XD
*peeks into pocket* =A= meh, moth. *coughs*
Thanks yuki for rushing out the production boards, now I ganbatte, going to reline the sketchs and scan RAWR! plus COLOR and finish up my environmental sketches. lolz, one frame pan = moe *love love*

Minstrel:

A raging fire in the distance
Ashes of the forest fading into the wind
Here I stand upon the rubbles
Till the last of my strength
I must defend
Our piece of wonderland
In this world of torment

Yes I see it
Hope in my eyes
Burning bright like the fire before me
This is not an end
Its our new beginning
Together We ReBuild

Even when my shallow stands alone
Thank you
For I can feel your warmth
Our hearts stands strong together

wad the minstrel did today:
Had a couple of snacks while making repeated trips to the kitchen
Was being rather lazy and took an extra detour from the usual routine
Had tea and cookies with the Summoner , so happy >///<
Then sent off the Summoner with a little tune from my guitar
Went around the corridors and hallways, doing little funny dances
Some other palace ppl joined in occasionally
As night falls, the minstrel tripped over a small stone and had a fall
Ouchie
Then she continues to giggle and went back to her chamber
Snuggled at her desk, covered by a warm blanket, she continues to carry out her duties on paper
by the dim candle light
Such a cozy night
^________^
Lets get down to business and do something :D
*feather ink pen scribble scribble*

Beginning

hi guys, this is my blog.
finally i set up one =A=
but due to over loaded with assignments and CODPIT! lolz, i will update this boring layout later
hope i dun bore u to tears here.

Since I am too lazy to make several blogs, in this blog i will be playing as 2 ppl, each documents different views of my daily life (hope i dun forget to update)
it's quite simple, as follows:

Kach = my randomness (usually posting of daily photos)
Minstrel = its either nonsense or riddles, i may separate this into another blog later when i am free

Beginning

Beginning